Talking Stage, Marriage and Everything Else

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We are barely half into May and I can categorically tell you, I've been through five different talking stages this year alone. Don't drag me😕, some lasted two weeks, other's more. I am just so un-interested in doing this love thing sometimes. I have made zero efforts and it's not my fault, I just have not seen a reason why I should.

You know what is wild? It is the fact that the other day I discovered one of my talking stage had a girlfriend, a woman that he has being with for over three years 😂😂, this woman is capable of beating the both of us. It is a good thing I was un-interested, because that is how they will say "I stole someone's man". Innocent Divine ooo.

I know I want love, at the same time, I want to enjoy my singleness, not enjoy in the sense that you people take it to be, I mean like achieve, be successful, reach certain milestones as a single woman before I commit. At the same time, I must tell you the pressure is crazy, considering my sister just got married.

The side comments that get to pass from time to time, by aunties, uncles and elderly people. They just know you are working and old enough to bring home a man. They don't want to know if you like the man in question or not. I mean, even this evening my mum stylishly brought up the conversation🤷‍♀️😬, and I had to stylishly side step the question, I also told her I am open to arranged marriage, which is sounding like a great idea now, since "I can't find a man😬😬". 

However, it would be totally one sided of me to also not mention how great love has being towards me, I guess one of the reasons that has made me so uninterested is because, the ones I really like and really like me back, we always find out, that we are not genetically compatible and this has been a huge problem for quite a while now. So it feels like an unending circle of trial and error and I hate it.

Should I also talk about my friends doing the most to ship me off with people😂? I see you people's effort and I really appreciate it, but it's like you people will rest small.

At the end of the day do I want this love thing or not? I mean yes, but I don't even have money to take care of another woman's son yet. I don't want another woman's son telling me I'm wicked, because I can't take care of him, so if somebody's son can hold on, let me "get my munny right"😊, to come and pay his groom price and take him home, he should not be angry. Also somebody's son must be AA genetically.

Lastly, I'm taking a break from life, so I'm out here in my father's village, enjoying everything rural life has to offer me. You all "Urban-ers" stay safe.

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  1. XKeyMay 13, 2022 at 2:01 PM

    Keep choosing you Divine; zero pressure fam, everything you desire are enroute. Patience is virtue yeah? You're a testimony already.

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